5 weeks and counting

So I only have 5 weeks left until I head out. I am so ready to leave and I can’t really put my finger on why. I don’t feel the need to get away from my family, I am not really around them that much now, Michael is in Japan and I hardly see my parents because of our busy schedules. I love my friends and leaving them will be hard but I still have this sense or urgency to go to a new place. I should be scared to move 6 hours from home and go to a place where I know no one, but I am not. I want to go now. I realize I should enjoy the time I have left but I work nine hours a day and I am usually to tired to do anything after work. I suppose you are supposes to feel this way, I guess you aren’t suppose to enjoy your summer after you graduate. It doesn’t even really feel like summer. I just feel like I am going through the motions to get to the end. Oh well, enough complaining, I mean it isn’t horrible it is just monotonous. At least I love my job, that is one thing I can say that most other teenagers can’t. I work at a summer camp with kindergartens and 1st graders and even though I say they drive me crazy they actually help me keep my sanity. They teach me a lot; like how to love Jesus the way he commands us too, to enjoy the simple things in life, how to laugh, and how to love others. The weekends are actually boring for me, all of my friends work so I just sit around and wait for monday to come so I can see my kids again. I told one of my kids named Brandon that it is sad that the person I will miss the most when I go to college will be a 6 year old boy. I assume that my life will get a little more interesting once my bother returns from Japan… he makes everything more interesting and he will be working at the summer camp with me so seeing him all day will be fun. I think it is weird how I am going non-stop throughout the week and when the weekend rolls by when I actually have free time I don’t use it I just sit at home and read, oh well I guess I like it that. I live in extremes, it has worked well for me for the past 19 years no need to contemplate why I do it and change now! Well this is my 1st post I assume that about 2 people will be reading this those people being Michael and Amy and they probably wont read this but oh well it is nice to write my thoughts down rather then jotting them down on my near-by napkin!

[Amy I miss you come home from California, Michael I miss you come home from Japan! It is sad that 2 of my best friends are so far away!]

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